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Happy New Years!!

I do realize that this is coming over a week late but it’s better late than never!

For New Years and the week after, Max and I were in London, England where we went to check out their annual fireworks. I am sure at least half the population of London was there on that night because there was no walking space for a good 2 kilometres along the strip of road ideal for viewing these fireworks. It was definitely a unique experience though, and I am so appreciative that I could go. Like, come on! How many people get to experience New Years in London!!

Please enjoy my little video above. What I love about it is that no one actually knew what number we were on with the countdown which made the fireworks even more exciting because they just started and I thought, “Yay! It’s a new year!! And those fireworks are so beautiful!!”

Now on a more serious note…

This past week I have been thinking about what I want to change for this new year. I know that technically I could change these things at any moment and did not have to wait for an entire new year to come, buuuut isn’t the new year just such a wonderful opportunity to re-evaluate and change what is not working?

Also I want to note that I don’t make resolutions and then watch my efforts slowly dwindle away within the first couple of months of the year. No, I make solid determination (at least for the past 3 years) and see them through until the end of the year.

This year I have been re-evaluating part of my life…instead of changing the outer circumstances I am in, I want to change some of the inner circumstances that have been lingering with me for quite some time. I have never had the courage to completely overcome these issues but I cannot let them hold me back any further and they are coming to an end in 2012!

By these inner things I specifically mean the plethera of different fears I have that hold me back. The longer I have the fears, the stronger they get and I have noticed that my ability to do everyday things is slowly diminishing as I let the terrifying thoughts creep up in my mind. I specifically need to rid myself of the general anxiety I have when doing everyday things like staying at home alone, driving in a car, taking a train or a plane, walking down the street, walking outside when the sun has set, and other perfectly normal activities like such. Another fear that has been holding me back for at least 4 or 5 years has been my fear of illness. I seriously need to let that go and begin appreciating the abundant health I currently have. Also in the fear category is anything else that I am scared to do that I cannot pinpoint at this moment.

This is a huge determination but I have come to a point where living with fear is not worth it! It is not protecting me from anything but only holding me back on a large scale. People tell me that when I let go of the fear, I will realize that the world is a really safe place and all along I had nothing to fear.

I read something great by Louise Hay the other day where she said something along the lines of, “Stop torturing yourself. Whenever you have a terrifying thought, replace it with a pleasant thought.” When I was picturing a burglar outside my bedroom window last night (seriously) I decided to picture instead the full moon and the stars that were really out there. The fear disappeared. My only other strategy is to simply let it go whenever a fear comes up. If I think something is dangerous than I’ll find a thrill in being dangerous. You see the trend.

Have any of you made serious inner determinations for 2012?

Happy new year, even though it’s late and have a wonderful day. My blogging should be back to regular schedule now that I am home from vacation!

Thanks for reading!